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3:43 AM
im in a state of shock rite now...
it wasnt a gd dae 4 me...haiz....yest. 1 ting in the mornin was woken up by sumone hu i didnt xpect him to "re-appear"...den wen to werk wif azz..n we were abit late..s usuali due to me...den at werk...gt HER...the sight of her juz makes me MAD!!!!!urghh!!!!haf i told u tt i miss werkin wif the old staff??yar i miss werkin wif dem...the new badge is SOOOO MUCH diff frm the previous badge....i oso miss werkin wif steph,jaysher,val,anna........haiz...
den was worried bout sumone...den now im freakin shock to noe bout sumtin....
haiz....
omg!!!i juz hate tiz feelin mann......i dunno whether to laugh,cry,smile,feel angry...arrgghhh!!!i gt mixed feelings....tiz sucks..im feelin so weak...haiz...
till here 4 now...
*If you can never find the words to explain how you feel, it's probably because there are no words to express it*
harlow...been feelin veri tired 4 the laz few daez..eventhou without the EARLY mornin calls...hahax..lemme summaries wat happen in school for the laz 2 daez...
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so called my 1st dae in my new skewl,new environment n new frenz..also not 4gettin my old frenz too....=D so the dae started off by mittin yisheng at boon lay stn...den we proceeded to JE to mit rodney n zhiwei..den on the wae to skewl...rodney juz cnt keep 'whinnin'..hehex...n rodney..i noe lar my fault..dun haf to remind me many tyms rite...hehe.....den reached wdlnds...den waited for mr ling to do his unfinished business...hahax..den on the wae..met up wif the khai(s)..hahax..khairi n khairil...hahax...den reached skewl liao..check claz n all...den LOST!!...hahahx...den finally found my claz...unfortunately in my claz i noe NOONE..felt so alien..hahax..den yest. computin course was soooo boring lar...evryone was soooo quiet...pin drop silent mann...cnnt tahan sia...TOO quiet liao...hahax...
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2nd dae in skewl...not so bad uh..started of by mittin the khai(s) [s i didnt go wif yisheng dey all...felt outcast..]but b4 tt...was surprised + happie to c shane(nydc) tere...didnt noe tt he oso frm the same skewl...hehex..cool..den go to claz..1st activity was doin a survey..2nd n 3rd activity..quite fun..hahax..brain benders n papaerbag skit..hehex..finally got to talk n laugh.hahx...our skit stupidly funnie sia..hmm,at least to us uh..hahahx...den 4th n 5th activity...change grp..new grp..new ppl...hahax..at first felt so alien..den ned to discuss..so HAF to talk..den we started tokin..n noe each other lorx..made a new frenz lyk raihanah,jawad,n two chi gals...4get their names...opps!=x after the orientation ends..mit up the khai(s)...den go causeway..accompani dem eat..den off we go...overall okay uh...fun...hehex..
tts all for now...
*Thinking of you is easy - I do it every day. Missing you is the heartache, that never goes away*
heyhey..
yest. slack all the wae...go aniwher oso slack...hahahx..BUT still i feel so tired n lethargic...sigh!
kk...i shall tok bout yest (o8o4o6)...first stop...went town to find Carrie..but mission fail..hahahx..ended up go NYDC take my pay chq..hahah...the gd ting of gng tere is tt i gt my pay chq...the BAD ting is...dey ask me to fill in the schedule..haiz...rong move mann...hahah..but i werk veri lil sia nxt week..ONLI 3 daez...haiz...nvm2.......kk..moving on...
den go uob n centrepoint...to help dem bank in their chq....2nd stop...bugis//sim lim sq....went to buy saihah's PINK mp3...hahahax...pink sia...wth...hahahx..*no offence*..hehe...den after tt went to mit my beloved sumone...hehe...den mit liao..dunno wher to go...haha..me bein the indecisive ones...of coz dunno larx...hahaha...end me n saihah play scissors-paper-stone in the middle of the mrt station..hahaha...veri childish rite..hahah..so saihah ALWEAZ wins...den go esplanade lorx...hahahx...den chill by the waterfront...den saihah transfer the songs to her new mp3...blablabla...den arto came...hehex...ey sorie eh..evrytym c u i pinch u...hehehx....u veri pinch-able uh...hahahx...
den we make a move..mit my darling;stephy...den came gavin n my 'syg';junhui...hahahx...went to 'Kbox'..haahahahx...dey plan to go in..den we sae we goin off soon den dey nvr go lorx...den hang out OUTSIDE Kbox..hahahx...den delydaly...den its tym 4 us to go home...so stephy,saihah n me go home lorx...den otw home..saw sumone VERI familiar...hahahax....den in the buz oso saw the saw person..hahahx...dang! wen i dun wan c him...i c him...wen i wan c him badly...nvr c him...haiyoh!hahahax...
tats all 4 todae..hahax...finally im werkin again tmr..hahahx...yeay!gt to werk wif the new peeps...hehehx...=D
*~I want to be your greatest hello and worst goodbye~*
trainin was QUITE fun..
12:17 AM
harlow everyone...
todae went out wif saihah...navya was suppose to join us...den dunno y suddenly she no mood...wat lar u...newaez,we ended up hang out at Lot 1...hahax...coz too late liao..i ned to go trainin mahx...hahax...
trainin starts at 6 but....we ended up startin at 6plus...haha...janji mlyu per...hahahahaha...den we gather...stretch...stretch...stretch......den we got abit of drills...den friendly match..hahax...1st game i nvr play...den watch dem play..haiz...shall not sae anitin......den i played the 2nd game...the 1st position was okay uh...den got to sub wif WA...damn!!NOT a gd position mann...sab noes y...grr....den dunno y dey oso sub...damn!!more stress...hahahx...sab shud noe y too...hahahax.....den after dat go JE for awhile...accompani sab mit her fren...den home swit home...
*If you can't get someone off your mind maybe they are supposed to be there!*
Hey peeps..todae is juz another dae...
Went to get my laptop in sch..on the wae tere I lost my hp..damn! it was a stressful dae for me mann..I felt lyk a part of me is missin..but I was ABIT relieved after I get to noe tt I left it in the can..(hw careless I cn b)..den the taxi driver was so nice to return it to me..thanx uncle..was 'supposed' to go out wif someone..but after the lost of my hp..i no mood liao..sorie u-noe-hu-u-r...but in the end he/she'went out' wif his/her fren..so not so bad uh..
Den after tt slack at home all the wae...
n nw im freakin frustrated mann!!!!hu is he to control my life?!my dad??plz lar...stop all ur lectures..u noe I feel so pressurized my u?!even my parents dun lecture me tt much n TT BAD!!! Do u noe wen u gif me all those lectures..u sumtimes go OVERBOARD..it reali suck!!!try bein in my position!!!
Argh!!!!im too frustrated to carry on...
*sumtimes i juz wished tt im not born to tiz world...im juz a burden*
hmmx...updating.......
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hehex..went outwif HIM...watched Failure to Launch.haha...dunno wat movie tt is..but juz watched uh...dunno wat to watch liao..wanna watch the chinese movie but scared he dun lyk..hahaha...so juz watch Failure to Launch lorx...hahax...den go sit2 4 awhile....den go home..
*A NIGHT TO REMEMBER*
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was suppose to wake up at 9...but ended up wakin p at 11!!!n OBVIOUSLY im LATE 4 werk...hahax...so haf to take cab larr..haiz....waste money again...damn!!but lucky MOD Parizz..
hehe...nt tt bad...so...werk was ok..saihah,navya,uma n their other 2 frenz came...den werk werk werk...den at 6 knock off...waited 4 azz n filzah to come...accompni dem change..den dey go werk..im off...den mit min...passed him the OC mix1 cd...hahax..den home swit home..=D
~I want to be your greatest hello and worst goodbye~
hey peeps...
hmmx...i had a wonderful dae yesterdae....hehex...*winks* thanx 2 my beloved frenz saihah n amin...
owh yar...guez wat name me n saihah came out wif 4 the 3 of us(saihah,amin & me)....The Lambat Gang...hahahaha...nvr on tym de...hahax...alwaez late...hehe...even werk i oso late..haha....u'll seldom c im early for werk de...hahahahah...so...all new nydc stuff...dun b lyk me....hahax..later dey cut ur pay..so...if u den mind dey cut ur pay..den...do cum late...hahahah....
den after me mit up n all...we proceeded to Padang to watch the 987 Hollaback Crew thingy...hehex...the hip-hop crew(the last to perform) was awesome mann...NTU(Sevens) is better in the semi-finals den the audition..hehe...keep it up! =D
*for those groups who made it to the finals...CONGRATULATIONS!!n ALL THE BEZ in the finals!!* ;o)
mit up wif amin's fren,junaidi (i tink tts his name uh)...hahaha....den after the Hollaback Crew thingy end..we went LJS...den go marina square...sumone wan go c sumbody..(shall not sae hu)..hehe....go all the wae tere..den da jumper bbual brape minit je..weak uh...hehe...den left MS...proceeded to esplanade...gt gig..bom's band gig..i tink so..hehe...shd b uh...heex..=D den mit all amin's fren(arto,mang,bom,mangga,mam-sumtin & alot more..4get the name liao)...den get to noe tiz guy..our 'neighbour'...namer Lan..hehe...he quite nice uh..owh yar....den get to c amin's dream gal....n***a**d**....
damn!haiz.....in between intervals...lepak2...owh yar!!!juz now me n saihah played a prank on amin..hehe...APRIL FOOL!!!hehe...amin,m i gd at actin?..hehe..*winks*hahahahax...tt was the coolest n nicest april fool ive ever did mann!!tt was fun..hehehe..*evil laughter*....
den after the gig...lepak2 jap...den halfway gt to noe another guy..haha..the aaron's(xNYDC) fren...he eveytin sae "dun cry..dun cry."..hahaha...wth???..haax....den home sweet hm...
*omg!he saw me cry lar....so paisey!*
~ tHe HaRdEsT pArT oF HoLdiNg oN iS LeTTiNg Go ~